my why :)

“why did you choose to go on the world race after the plan changed to not leave to Romania in september?” was a question i was asked last week that has really stuck with me. instead of going Romania this month, I’m staying at the Adventures in Missions headquarters in Gainesville, Georgia! while i’m here i’m doing missionary training, building an authentic christian community with my squad, team, and leaders, growing in intimacy with God, and building a better biblical foundation so i can live more passionately for Christ! 

The reason the question stuck out to me so much is because I feel like I genuinely didn’t choose to stay on the world race at all, instead God wanted me here, so, He led me here anyway! I had sorta given up on the world race a few months ago because of this change in the plan for us to stay in my hometown instead of traveling across the world to minister to new beautiful places. God really humbled me and revealed to me that me getting to travel the world was more of a motivation for me to go on the race than I had thought. i was so upset because seriously, to have the plans change from going to romania in september to STAYING IN GEORGIA in september was absolutely not at all what “i” had signed up for!!! buttttt with prayer and meditation on the Word, i realized that it wasn’t actually me who had the plan, but it was God! and with that revelation i knew i had to go all in because this wasn’t just something i wanted to do anymore, but it was what i knew God was wanting me to do! God knew good and well that when i signed up i was actually signing up to go to Gainesville for 3.5 months whether i knew it or not! i told myself that i could only truly grow if i was far away from home. i told myself that if i wasn’t traveling i wasn’t going. all Glory to God for sending me here though! i know i am here only because that was what God wanted, definitely not what i wanted, and i am SO joyful and blessed to be in a place where God brought me instead of where i tried to lead myself to! 

i am so excited for this season God has presented me with where my spirit can grow fervently! i am so excited for the man i am going to be at the other end of this! i am so excited to have this time to learn who i am in Christ so that I can better minister to others through Christ! i am so pumped to have a squad and a team who has only one primary focus everyday, to exalt the Lord! “By stretching forth thine hand to heal; and that signs and wonders may be done by the name of thy holy child Jesus. And when they had prayed, the place was shaken where they were assembled together; and they were all filled with the Holy Ghost, and they spake the word of God with boldness.” Acts 4:30-31

i’ve been so shocked to see just how much i’ve grown within a week and a half of being here! i’m learning how to let go of the insecurities i’ve held onto my whole life and to truly give them to the Lord! i know i will never be the same after these 9 months! i’m finally being vulnerable and opening up about my life, which has always been one of my biggest fears! i’m pursuing God in a way that i never have before and it’s causing me to have eyes that are able to see how gloriously He’s been pursuing me too! i am learning to lean on God for everything, to lean into His love, His righteousness, and His beautiful Word! The Lord is my shepherd and i’m more eager now than i have ever been to follow Him! i’m learning that even though eternal life is free, truly following God comes with a price: “Then said Jesus unto his disciples, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me. For whosoever will save his life shall lose it: and whosoever will lose his life for my sake shall find it. For what is a man profited, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul? or what shall a man give in exchange for his soul?” Matthew 16:24-26

i am so eager to grow more and more everyday and i can’t wait to share with you all what God is doing in my life! i want to know what God is doing in your life too, so leave a comment or message me to share how God is showing up in your life!